Well y’all, it’s been a hot minute or two. I somewhat fell off the wagon for my Powersheets for the month of May and I’ve struggled with a sense of melancholy towards life and making progress. Life is full of phases and I’ve been planted in the “I’m imperfect so I should quit!” lie, which has really sent me off kilter. I’m not really feeling like myself lately, and I’m not sure what the problem is. Life has been really good, so why do I feel so blah about everything?
I’ve slacked on my goals. A little bit. I am thankful I haven’t succumbed back to the worst of the worst old habits, but I’ve stagnated by being inconsistent. I haven’t been following through with the things I say I will do. I make these lofty goals, and then when the time comes I make excuses and rationalize my way out of it. I’m feeling quite downtrodden by just how far away everything seems to be. Getting my craft business off the ground seems to be an infinite journey away when my work doesn’t seem “good enough” in my mind. My goal weight of 110 pounds seems impossible some days when I don’t hit my milestones. Paying off bills, saving for a down payment, and buying a house seems like something we’ll never accomplish in our short blip of a lifetime. I come home from work everyday just feeling so mentally drained and exhausted that sometimes even feeding myself seems like an impossible chore.
It is very, very clear that failing to plan means planning to fail. And by leaving my Powersheets untouched for stretches of days at a time, skipping my weekend planning days, not meal planning and not utilizing my daily planner as I should means I fall into a funk where what matters to me gets tossed to the wayside in favor of too much Netflix, too much pizza, and too much Facebook.
I believe that sharing a journey and sharing progress keeps you accountable. And I want to encourage, inspire and motivate others to make positive changes in their life. The years we are allotted on this earth are limited, and I want to inspire others to live the life they want instead of looking back when they’re 80 and regretting the life they had. On a personal level, I want to be more vulnerable and open. The best relationships grow when you allow yourself to be vulnerable, and I’m trying to be very careful about crafting that perfect Instagram facade.
I took a good hard look at my goals and culled things. I pruned and weeded the list and narrowed it down to a few things I want to focus on this summer. I want to take this summer slow, and really reset and get my progress back on track. I chose “resetting” as my focal word for June. I need to get back to the basics of what matters to me and set reasonable goals that I can tangibly achieve so the long stretches of red marks don’t discourage me from trying at all. I also allowed myself to get a little messy, which is quite counter to my nature.
There’s a lot of “big” goals happening in June, which means I left blank spaces to keep myself from taking on too much, getting discouraged, and quitting. In my mind, empty lines equates to a failure, which has been a struggle to overcome that natural inclination to view myself as a failure for not being 100%. But I’m choosing grace this June to not become a slave to the check boxes for the sack of having check boxes. What’s on my Powersheets actually matter.
- Publish three blog posts. Having a successful writing career has been a burning desire in my heart since I could, well, spell. Being paid to have people read my silly internet words would be a dream come true. It’s time to make blogging, and learning how to be a real blogger, a big priority.
- Lose four pounds. I can’t accomplish any goals unless I’m healthy enough and feel good. Poor eating habits, not exercising, not drinking enough water and getting enough sleep can derail my entire day by making me feel tired, bloated and sick. Health above all.
- Move into our new place. So many mixed feelings about this. I’ve moved every year since 2009. However, I’m not too keen on our current living arrangements (reading between the lines, I really hate our tiny apartment). We’ve applied for and have been approved for a 2 bedroom 1.5 bath townhouse on our favorite side of town, for cheaper than our tiny one bedroom. I’m excited to have more space and feel better about our home, but the packing, moving and unpacking is mentally daunting. Oh, and cleaning. And expenses. And dealing with all of the utilities and changing addresses. I know it will be worth it in the end, but it’s such a big task to accomplish in such a short amount of time. And, uhm, we haven’t started the physical tasks at all yet.
- Create my student loan payment attack plan. I have a $35,779.09 weight hanging on my shoulders. It’s keeping us from accomplishing so much. We can’t buy a house with this. We can’t have kids. We can’t do anything. Next year the payments will be around $800 between the two of us. So, it’s time to attack. I have a goal of paying off my student loans in under 3 years. That’s a payment of $1000 a month. We are reevaluating everything. Cutting our phone plan down. Cutting our fast food and eating out budget. Making a goal of not spend any money every day but ONE day on the weekend (see daily goals). Centering our fun around free or very cheap things to do. I’m working on figuring out a side hustle I want to do to hopefully bring in a couple of extra hundred dollars a month. Tax refunds, Christmas bonuses, every dollar I can spare gets thrown into that money pit (don’t go to college, y’all!). A few people have scoffed and said there’s no way, and I can’t wait to prove them wrong. So thanks for that inspiration.
- Read three books. I currently have, uhm, like 30 to 40 unread books to read. As a part of my “don’t spend any money” thing, I’m committing to not buying any new books until I read them all! This month’s features include:
- Keep food budget <$100 per week. Real talk, we spent $650 on fast food and eating out this month. We are changing that habit by leaps and bounds! We started using Blue Apron ($50/week for three meals) plus plan on being very meticulous and consistent with weekly meal planning and shopping on the weekends. We are aiming for salad, fruit, and having one crock pot meal to help with the other days.
- Start summer Bible study session at FBC. This summer’s session is doing Finding I Am by Lysa Terkeurst. If you’re local, we’d love to have you! Check out the details on the website.
- Have a servant heart. I am trying to focus on being content with what I have, being present and serving others. I will be a good and present CASA, serve at church, reach out and love others well, give my money and time to be a light in the lives of others.
- Attend church at FBC on Sundays. I’ve slacked a lot over the last few weeks. I like sleeping in. I always feel better when we go.
- Complete one week of Couch 2 5K. I keep starting, getting half way through, falling off the wagon and restarting because I am a perfectionist. So, here I am restarting the program again. I want to run a race sub 35 minutes!
- Deposit $50 into Long Term Savings + $50 into the emergency fund. This has been a long term goal. One is for our future house down payment. The other is to be prepared when things abruptly go wrong. Can’t afford to NOT have an emergency fund!
- Use my weekends wisely. Control the social media usage. Curb the random days where all I do is nap and watch Netflix. I need to use this time to prepare for good weeks. Grocery shop, meal plan, run errands, clean up, do laundry, keep my life on track. A little effort goes a long way in making the rest of the week go smoothly.
- Don’t spend ANY money! This is going to be quite the challenge. We are allotting one day a week (Saturday or Sunday) to grocery shop, get gas, or do whatever spending needs to be done (beyond paying actual bills). No fast food, no coffee runs, no Amazon splurges. The goal is to end the month with as much money as possible.
- Don’t eat fast food/restaurant food. Too many useless calories. Too expensive. Remember that $650 from above? Yeah, we are aiming to ax that down to $0.
- No social media until I spend time with God. Prayer, Bible study, meditation, pod casts, whatever. I waste a lot of time refreshing the same stupid pages with little to no change. I can’t even touch it until I do something to feed my soul. And if that means I don’t do it until 9:00 at night, well, I guess I’ll miss out on the poorly researched political posts and cute cat photos (I’ll miss one, I’ll let you guess which one it is.)
- Bible study. Kind of varies on what I do, but I’ve got to do something. I keep slacking on the read the whole Bible in a year thing. I bought the She Reads Truth Bible and it’s so pretty to use I feel guilty even touching it.
- Complete my healthy habits list. 120 fl. oz. of water, take medication, skin care routine twice daily, 10,000 steps. I measure success by hitting 4/5 daily tasks.
- Start my day with my Powersheets and Planner. Everything goes much more smoothly and I feel more centered when I start off my morning in my Powersheets and Day Designer Planner. When I center myself around my daily goals, write out the top three things I want to accomplish today, and keep track of my time I end my day feeling less stressed and more content.
I look forward to attacking my goals this month, making progress and bettering myself. I look forward to actually following through with my progress on June 30! (See, two blog posts all planned out already. Look at me go, doing stuff.)
What are you working towards this month? Shoot me a comment below. I would love to connect and encourage you!
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